well on the behalf of cynthia convincing me (slash tellling me i never  write) I think I will write and update.  Life is going pretty good right now.  Summer boredom kicked in about a 2 weeks ago and luckily it is over.  I have a job YAY.  I now work at Rite Aid in tanasbourne and love the fact that I make more than minimum wage.  and I think i'll be getting a fair amount of hours too.

Things in life however can sometimes make everything WAY more complicated.  Such as things with church.  I am so confused right now that I don't know what i want to do.  Actually I am just totally confused with my life at the moment but that is ok because i don't need to know what is going on in my life right?  And is it fully human to not be confused with your life at some point?  Now don't go thinking i am a depressed confused because that totally isn't it.  It's more of a What just happened and what am I supposed to be doing confused.

I am SOOOOO excited for college to start in August.  I have my housing assignment and it totally rocks.  I am a little disappointed about where i have to live but I am really excited about who my roomate is.  We have been talking back and forth and she is totally awesome.

I really hope that I get to go to Jon and Alyssa's wedding next month but i don't know if I am going to be able to because of work.  I really don't want to ask for time off but then again I really want to go.. Idk. I'll figure it out.  Ok that's enough for now.  Tata

ok so life goes on and i've come to the conclusion that as soon as something bad is done with and something good starts to come.... that everything starts going wrong again.  A little vague I know but it's true. 

Prom has been so unbeleiveably hectic and just as things started to work themselves out something else has to go wrong or bad.  Honestly I don't even know what is happening in my own life right now.  Everything is just so crazy, and it seems that where I should be able to make things good or right, all I do is make them worse or more complicated or just compeletly more screwed than before. 

You know how you have those times where there is so much going on that you just sort of loose control of everything so you try to hold on to the one thing that means the most to you or you turn to the one thing that you think will make you feel better..... well right now I can't even seem to hold on to my "thing" I just wish there was some way to get back control....

Woe is my life when I do what I want.